With the temperature drop and the earlier nights starting to set in, its been more and more of a struggle for me to keep a positive attitude. I really dislike the cold, dark, winter months. And while they aren't fully here yet, I can feel my insides bracing themselves for the inevitable.
I know that a lot of my winter blues come from past experiences. This time of year always reminds me of the worst time in my life and so I think I associate the winter months, Christmas, cold and darkness with the horrible depression I suffered through that time. Now, I really dislike them all.
I'm not sure what to do. I know the most logical solution would be to move somewhere that didn't snow and the lowest the temperature ever dropped was 70, but I don't have the courage to take a big chance like that. I wish I did. I wish I could take a chance because I'll never get this part of my life back again.
So if I seem like a bah-humbug throughout the upcoming holidays, please don't take anything personal... Its my own issue and I've just got to work through it and keep looking forward to when summer returns next year.
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